A Celebration of life...

My grandmother Verna is in now in heaven with my grandfather Phil.  She passed away this evening at 11:15 pm.  We had just left the nursing home, and she passed 15 minutes later.  This was her last and final wish, and it was granted.  I love you gram.  Watch over us and we will meet again.  You are my angel.

My Grandmother

Today we received the devastating blow that my maternal grandmother Verna's cancer has returned and will be her detriment.  Since my grandfather's passing she has been very lonely and missing him.  She is the one whom is at peace and the rest of us are falling apart.  She has terrible peripheral edema in her legs, and is not doing well at all.  The physician told us that she has just over a month to live and we are extremely sad.  Words cannot express the love you feel for a grandparent, whom is also my God Mother.  I couldnt imagine my life without her in it.  Thank God I didnt have to.  She is ready to move on to the next phase of her existence.  I will enjoy every moment I have left.  She told me today that she wants to live long enough for me to undergo my Bariatric Bypass Surgery.  I pray that will be the case and we will both have our prayers answered.  This post is dedicated to my grandmother VERNA.  This is my year to shine, and her year to be guided by the light.  We will see each other again.  Thats a guarantee.  I love you gram. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMERICA!!!

The air was so soaked with humidity today, I actually napped for the first time in ages.  Kirk and I went to the parade in the afternoon, and then back for the fireworks.  Was able to meet up with my friend "Sis" and her dad.  It was awesome.  We had a great time.  Good laughs and good company.  Its a 4th of July I thoroughly enjoyed.  My last 4th of July obese.  I have so much to be thankful for. 

Surgery Date

Its official.  I will have my bariatric bypass surgery on August 3rd, 2010.  Its so exciting for many, many reasons.  I love the number 3, so it also has some calming meaning as well.  When I got the call from the hospital today, it truly took my breath away.  I embark on this project with a modest prayer; that its outcome will be the best that is possible in whatever circumstances have unfolded by the time of its conclusion. A big part of my preparation for not only surgery, but the changes that I will be going thru post surgery, was my continued weekly psychotherapy.  My therapist is truly a master of his trade.  He has prepared me for coming to grips with the past, steering through the present and prepping for a brighter future. In its own mysterious way, this journey has let me read hidden pages in my autobiography...a diary I did not even know I was keeping, complete with a glimpse of what might be written on the pages ahead and advice on what I need to do to rewrite those pages to make a more satisfying story.  Tomorrow I will start the pre-op diet.  Its actually 2 weeks earlier than they would really like you to, however I want to make my surgical procedure as easy for the Doctor as possible.  Its going to be a very long month.  I am going to have 1,000 calories for the next seven days, then 900 calories for the following 7 days, then 800 calories daily for the final 2 weeks before surgery.  As overwhelming as these numbers may seem, I can do this.  I will do this.  I will never look back. 

Today changed my life

Just got the all so important call I have been waiting for.  I have been approved for my bariatric bypass surgery and couldnt be more thrilled  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    The news quite honestly took my breath away.  I will never look back while I am healing from obesity.  I can only move foward from this day on.  Thank you .

Tomorrow's Monday

Thinking about that all important phone call.  I am confident it will be this week. I will keep you posted. 

Patient Benefits

Spoke with someone in patient benefits today and no word on surgery approval yet.  Today was only the 5th business day since my packet was faxed to the insurance.  I am so excited and very anxious to get my date.  I told the woman that I spoke to that we need a code word.  I asked her just to say "YES" on my voicemail if I am unavailable.  That way I can get the anxiety over with.  LOL.. She said most people cannot stand it when she calls and shes the final step before surgery.  She said she will only say YES if all is well.  Things have worked so well to this point.  Monday is coming.  Tuesday just might be the day and call.